Thursday, March 5, 2009

What is this feeling?

There's something going on inside me. I don' t know what is happening and my inclination is to pretend it's nothing and just keep doing the same things I always do...in the same way I always have. But I'm smart enough to know this isn't really what my soul wants to do. I am being blessed with spiritual dis-ease. Time to shift my focus and pay attention. Those little stirrings are there for a reason. The people appearing and reappearing in my life and in my dreams do mean something.

How do I know this? Because I'm nearly 50 years old and I know when these little soul cries come upon me, it's important!! Because all the work I've been doing, all the study and reading, all the tears and pain, are preparing me for something big. I don' t know what it is. But I believe with all my heart that it is something that will shift me in a very important way.

And that's what scares me. That's what makes me want to stick my head in the sand.

And that's why I know it wouldn't make a bit of difference. My soul has been searching and crying and preparing for just this moment.

So, I'll clear my calendar. Do my self care. Get my sleep. And be ready for whatever it is whenever it shows up.

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