Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Present(s)

Be here now.
Feel the force.
Let your light shine.
You had the power all along.
Click your heals three times....

I was watching the new SciFi miniseries TinMan - which wasn't too bad actually. I like Zooey Deschanel and the story was a nice twist on the OZ tale. And I started thinking about Joseph Campbell and the Hero's journey and all the times in my life that I've tried to be present to what is happening in my life and not worry about what it might mean or that it might all go away. Because it always does. That's what makes friends so precious and memories so treasured. Because we only have those moments and those friends and those precious connections for a heartbeat.

It's been a year where I have had to let go of people. But mostly it's been a year where I have had to let go of me. A year where I have had to learn to be more gentle with myself - as gentle as I am with others. And where I have had to find the courage to be me, no matter what the cost.

I've realized much. I've learned much. And I've been greatly blessed, because I took a chance. And I found the courage to risk. Now I have to find the courage to forgive myself and be gentle where my aims have fallen short.

I've been so busy TRYING to be present, that I haven't been present. So busy TRYING to be safe, that I was not safe. So busy TRYING - that I have not Been. So it's time to realize...

That the power was inside me all the time.
It's time to let my light shine and stop worrying about it being seen.
I have a brain, a heart, a home and the nerve....

To be here now.

To be present and to be a present.

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